The Quest for Thought

You see people doing what you want to do and even though you are happy for them, there is some part that feels jealous. You want to experience the things on your bucket list, yet you know there are certain things you will never be able to.

You do not want to feel this negatively or sound like you are always cribbing, however, when you know there are certain things you will never be able to experience a part of you dies. It is a part that you cannot explain to people or sometimes even to yourself. All you know is you just want to live a fulfilled life.

The list of experiences that you can have and the list of experiences you cannot have is so uneven that there is no denying the fact that a lifetime is less for all the things you want to do, achieve and create.

I am not saying that I haven’t been able to do any of the things on my bucket list but there is a whole lot of chunk that I will not be able to do through no fault of your own. I will try my best to create a life that I am happy about and have chosen for myself, but how do I shut down the part of me that wants to run wild and live like there is no tomorrow? I just wanna have fun.