The Quest for Thought

Do you ever wish to delete certain parts of your life? Some bad memories and some good that now hurt whenever you think about it.

Certain parts of my life make me who I am, and funnily enough those are the parts I want to delete forever.

There are many decisions that I took that now when I think in retrospect could have been handled more calmly. Certain people that I met, things I did, places I visited, words I spoke, things I saw and heard, I wish I could erase it all.

Those memories, those moments, the laughter, the sadness and everything else are something I do not want to remember. The way that certain things turned out knowing they should not have had that way haunts me and will always continue to haunt me.

If given a chance I would certainly like to go back in time and relive certain moments just to change the outcomes that come from it, and maybe, just maybe that would reduce the pain that I have inside me and the pain I have caused people.

Knowingly or unknowingly there are things, places, music, food and other things that start to feel taboo just because something bad happened when you were there, or listening to it or eating it at that point in time.

One moment you are happy and the next you are completely transported to the place you had tried so hard to get out of just because you heard a phrase that was so heavily attached to that moment.

The past, however terrible it might have been cannot be changed. The only thing that can be changed is the future by trying not to associate things with moments to enjoy those things again.

“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.”

Albus Dumbledore, (Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone)