The Quest for Thought

Sometimes I believe that my luck is so shitty that nothing good can ever happen to me. I might try my level best however the result always alludes me.

I have never gotten a job that I like, I do not have people that have my back or support me. It feels like I am alone in this entire thing and people only use me as a pit stop to rest.

I know that I should not have expectations from people, if not fulfilled will hurt me. However, there are times when I too want to feel important in somebody’s life. I want a job that I actually like and I get to learn something from it.

It feels like nothing good will ever happen in my life and I will just have to power through always. There will be nobody that will have my back and nobody that will cheer me on. I will have to have my own back and cheer my self.

People in this world are extremely selfish and only remember you when they need something from you.

I just want to cry all day and do nothing and just sleep and eat and take care of myself. My health, both mental and physical have been fucked because of the environment I am in. It feels like I cannot even express myself and if I do I will not be heard.

All I know is I need to start thinking about myself and become the person that I like and I want to be.