The Quest for Thought

Your mind has stopped working. Nothing excites you anymore. You are just going on for the sake of it. Nothing excites you anymore. It is all just happening in a blur. The things that make you get out of bed now are the same things that make you want to sleep more.

You know you are done with everything. There are things that just make your blood boil, and even then you cannot do anything about it. You know saying those things out loud will make no difference. You want to do so much, yet you are just glued to the chair or whatever helps you be distracted from the actual work that you want to do.

Your mind has lost the meaning of everything that happens, it is like your mind has become a mush where things sound like someone who has had too many shots and has lost the ability to think and speak.

You just want to shut everything and be with your own thoughts and emotions that sometimes lead to a bigger chaos or sometimes just making you feel numb. The ability to express becomes so redundant because you know that the meaning of expressing has lost all meaning and nobody is interested in knowing what you feel.

In the end all you want is to be not bored and just be living the life as you want it to without having to think about other things.